For The People Who Are Still Alive.

voxmortuum — Sun, 17 Jan 2010 03:29:38 +0000

So I’m still here. It’s been a bit, I know. I’ll try to be better about it in the future. Right after the new year we had to titrate my meds again (more crazy makes me need more meds) and that takes a bit to get used to. Plus I also had some sort of sinus stuff that tried to eat my face off. Sinus stuff + new meds = broke down worn out Vox fit for nothing more than forcing herself to go to the RealJob and then coming home and sitting on the couch and crocheting granny squares until her brains fall out.

But now I’m better. *twitch*

Anyhoo, since this blog is all about saying things that I want to say (other than those that will scare horses and permanently scar the family members that I like) I thought I’d review the opening themes of two anime series that I enjoy.

First on my list is “Inner Universe” by Yoko Kanno — the only Yoko as far as I’m concerned:

Angels and demons were circling above me
Swishing through the hardships and milky ways
The only one who doesn’t know the happiness
is the one who couldn’t understand his call

Morato Vultis, Morato Vultis
Aeria Glories, Aeria Glories

I am Calling Calling now, Spirits rise and falling
To stay myself longer…
Calling Calling, in the depth of longing
To stay myself longer…

Morato Vultis, Morato Vultis
Aeria Glories, Aeria Glories

Stand alone… Where was life when it had a meaning…
Stand alone… Nothing’s real anymore and…
Stand alone… Where was life when it had a meaning…
Stand alone… Nothing’s real anymore and…

…Endless run…
While I’m alive, I can try not to fall while flying,
Not to forget how to dream… how to love
…Endless run…

Calling Calling, For the place of knowing
There’s more that what can be linked
Calling Calling, Never will I look away
For what life has left for me
Yearning Yearning, for what’s left of loving

Calling Calling now, Spirits rise and falling
To stay myself longer…
Calling Calling, in the depth of longing
To stay myself longer…

Morato Vultis, Morato Vultis
Aeria Glories, Aeria Glories

The song is one full of longing and loss, and is a gorgeous melody. Written mostly in Russian (I’ve included the translation here), the language is strangely beautiful as arranged. The Latin here roughly translates to “Gentle Longing, Heavenly Glories”.

I really identify with this song, on many levels.

My second song is from one of the saddest animes I’ve yet to find, called “Gunslinger Girls”. I’ve got the full series on dvd (all 12 eps, short series, probably because the producers were crying too hard to make more) but I can only watch it rarely since it’s hard on my stock of Kleenex.

The title is “The Light Before We Land” , by the Delgados:

In cases
such as these I’d like a hand
Don’t wake me up without a master plan
With sight and sound becoming fragile
Don’t you understand?
When things that once were beautiful
Are bland

And when I feel like I can feel once again
Let me stay awhile
Soak it in awhile
If we can hold on we can fix what is wrong
Buy a little time
For this head of mine
Heaven for us

In truth there is no better place to be
Than falling out of darkness still to see

Without a premonition
Could you tell me where we stand?
I’d hate to lose this light
Before we land

And when I feel like I can feel once again
Let me stay awhile
Soak it in awhile
If we can hold on we can fix what is wrong
Buy a little time
For this head of mine
Heaven for us

Before we let euphoria
Convince us we are free
Remind us how we used to feel
Before when life was real

And when I feel like I can feel once again
Let me stay awhile
Soak it in awhile
If we can hold on we can fix what is wrong
Buy a little time
For this head of mine
Heaven for us

This song is in 3/4th time and lends itself to the image of a slow sad waltz. I’ve been in this situation before, looking for a moment of peace and happiness in a veritable shitestorm of stress and anxiety.

Anyhoo, so lately I’ve been working on 4 dolls of personal characters for one client, and tons of granny squares for next Christmas’s gifts (I swear to GODS that I won’t be stressed by getting gifts together this year), and still sweating on the Pyramid Head I still need to finish.

Today I’ve been working on the 5 foot long body for a Eastern style dragon. Two hundred joined rows of single crochet. Two hundred rounds. No wonder my wrists are killing me.

More miscellany tomorrow. Difficult to wait, huh? I know you’re just thrilled.

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For The People Who Are Still Alive.